Patient Number Nine


The first question I guess I should answer is who am I and what gives me the right to talk about this stuff?

Who Am I?

(the simple answer) I am a 43 year old female. Single mom of a teenage girl and boy. I have 3 dogs, 1 cat, 2 goats, 20 chickens, a duck and a lizard. I have spent much of my life learning and versed in a variety of avenues. I have a degree in Applied Behaviour Analysis (ABA) and specialized in working with people with disabilities. And I love to garden.

(the not so simple answer) I have a brain difference. My official diagnosis sounds something like “Bipolar Type I Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, Treatment Resistant Depression and Severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder”

I am currently part of a ketamine clinic to treat the treatment resistant depression and PTSD. I can tell you that ketamine works for me. This blog is going to share a great deal about ketamine treatment and how it effects me. I will share my “trips” with you and the healing that I experience on the way. I have learned a lot about what works and what doesn’t and I hope that you will gain some knowledge as I share my story about how ketamine is changing my life. Right now I receive ketamine intravenous injections once every 4 weeks. The ketamine works like magic for me and it is a little different for everyone. I go into the infusion crying and in the depths of despair and in 40mins I am all better. Yes ALL BETTER, well for a time. On day 7 after my last injection the ketamine begins to wear off. This is where I have decided to begin this story, with the day I start to go down the rabbit hole.